lilisan31

Author :

lilisan31
Translator : My Sis Witch

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Pairing : Ohmiya
Genre : Violence, angst, Pg-13
Word count : 696 words
Summary : "Let me float.. Again and forever.. In the "non-existence" that I translate by my presence."

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Third drop ~

Passive in my bed, I contemplate the dancing shadows on the ceiling. In this darkness only broken by a few furtive traffic lights that constantly remind me of my situation, again and again.

The brightness of light of my life, the only one created in this world for me .. Now he shares my world, I have only one desire, to possess him completely. I feel different, something in me warms when he is next to me, the thought of seeing him again gives me strange sensations in the stomach. I'm not sure I like this kind of anatomical reaction, but I can’t help but be attracted by him.

Tomorrow .. Yes, tomorrow too, I’ll see him.

*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*

He leads me in a too loud restaurant for my taste. Once installed, he feels my tension, and, awkwardly plays with his stainless cheap iron cutlery.

His finger smooth’s in a repetitive manner the blade of his knife, I become quickly obsessed, ignoring the words he can tell me. Only this gesture is important, my heart races deliciously and I understand that this demon asleep in me never really was.

My whole body shivers of apprehension. Every move on this bright surface gets me a hidden gasp.

Soon the unavoidable happens, he jumps, surprised, and moans in pain when his finger slips and he cuts his skin. I clench my jaw to hold back a groan. It's wonderfully erotic!

He brings his bloody finger to his mouth, sucking the blood, his tongue swirling around it several times, his face grimacing at the metallic taste for what I would sell my soul. I feel my member switching in a desire I know too well.

My hands are clenched against my thighs, I want him... So...

- Ohchan I'm sorry for being so clumsy. He mutters, obviously embarrassed because of this slight blush on his cheeks and his sheepish face.

This feeling of having your stomach invaded by a foreign body starts again, and disturbs my deep desire.

- Ohchan ..?

I suddenly realize that even when trying to hide my real thoughts, pretending to agree with our relationship as it is... There will always have a lack. This lack, which is a complete part of me and that I’ll never be able to send off to sleep.

My eyes dive in his, he is so beautiful, so perfect. Can I just keep on loving him? And for how long?

In a silence that surely rips what remains of my heart, I get up and tells him coldly before running away from him.

- I go.

*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*

Several minutes later, he calls me. I look around me, this sterile and empty apartment that characterizes me, causes my ultimate choice.

I pick up showing annoyance in my voice.

- O-Ohchan... It's been months that we see each other, but... I have the feeling that anytime I make a step toward you, you back off... Tonight .. I haven’t understood what happened... I...

We are not face to face, yet I can well picture his unsecure face, his trembling lips, his fingers twisted painfully on the unit, his legs taken by uncontrolled agitation.

I don’t know how to react..

My obsession that I feel growing more and more intense pushes me to run away. I don’t want to hurt him .. Will I hurt him?

The risk can’t be quantified, and the loss will be real. The distance I impose myself will keep him safe, no? As long as this balance of feelings will be proportional, then, I will not lose anything.

I don’t want to lose him..

"In this distorted world, I quickly became transparent and invisible.
Please don’t find me! Don’t look at me!
I don’t want to hurt you in a world that someone has drawn.
Remember me well separately. "

- Don’t try to join me anymore.

I hung up coldly, I’ll probably regret my action one day, but love is also about hurting? So I want to feel this pain fully, because as long as it will be there ... He also will be.

- Please don’t look for me..